This is the first time, since my sembreak started, that I woke up earlier than 8 AM. *happy dance*
Ever since my vacation (a.k.a. indolent bum's holiday) started, I've been waking up with a grumpy look on my face as I eat my first meal of the day --> late lunch. It's not even worthy of being called lunch because it is a "relatively late" lunch.
My sleeping pattern did not change, or perhaps, it's now worse. My self-diagnosed insomnia has exacerbated, I can't sleep at night. I can't. I usually go to bed at around 2 AM- 4 AM. This is bad. I've been doing this since last sem. And I thought that I could finally fix my sleeping habit this sembreak, but noooooo.
What am I doing until 4 AM? I usually watch movies in my laptop, read books until I feel drowsy (happy face here), write (in my journal/blog or I write short stories/poems), re-read my journals, read other people's online journals, try to compose music, watch Nat Geo or TLC (Travel & Living), reconstruct memories (WHAT??), do incessant planning (and worry about these plans), listen to my comfort music, imagine, rethink, reflect, bla bla.
Hoho. Sembreak, you make me so unhealthy. (And yet so happy!)
But today, I woke up before 8 AM (this is a really big deal for me, oh yes it is). Strange. I struggled with my sheets, sleep was still calling me. My roseate pillows were still seducing me, but I had to wake up. Today, I shall wake up early (for a change), I said to myself as I tried to escape from my eternal languor. I felt weird. I'm not a morning person (I'm more of a night owl), I felt dizzy and disoriented (and very hungry). I hope that I can still wake up "early" for the remaining days of my sembreak.
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THE PURPOSE OF THIS BLOG ENTRY:
I had a very interesting 2 AM experience today.
Last night, I attempted to sleep "early." Well, not really early, but "relatively early." Today is all about relativity, huh? (hihihihi) I did not watch a movie nor did I read a book (I'm currently reading Sedaris' Holidays on Ice). It was around eleven in the evening. I turned off the lights, the TV, the laptop. I was trying to sleep.
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And the next thing I knew it was already two in the morning. How can time sneak up on me like this? How????
I was having trouble sleeping, so I texted my good friend, Jamu. She was still awake, apparently she was watching some trashy film. Hoho. So we talked for a while about her randomness. Pure fun. While I was waiting for her reply, I suddenly remembered a word I can't seem to recall its correct spelling.
TAKE NOTE: Kapag may naalala akong word at di ko ma-recall ang meaning nito or spelling, kailangan ko agad komunsulta sa dictionary. Hindi ako makaka-move on sa buhay ko kapag hindi ko ito nabasa sa dictionary. Lezgo OCness. Uh-huh.
So, I remebered this certain word and I just had to look it up in the dictionary. I didn't bother turning on the light because I was already too comfortable lying in my bed, instead, I used my cellphone's flashlight (Lazy bee hihi). My study table is right next to my bed, and so all I had to do was stretch my arm and grab my dictionary.
Okay, so the word I suddenly remembered starts with a "P." But when you open a dictionary, you open it at a random page, right? You can't really exactly turn to the page in which the word you're looking for is found, yes? And so, here's the gooooood part hihihihi:
When I opened the dictionary, the first word I saw was "JAPAN." I'm not kidding. I did not do this on purpose. And of course, I took this as another "sign."
Coincidence, Overthinking, label it with whatever pessimistic term there is. But I'm still taking this as a sign. : )
I literally laughed (2 AM, girl laughs amid darkness). I was just too happy.
It was two in the morning, but I just had to write this down in my private journal (a small notebook). So with the help of my cellphone's flashlight, I excitedly wrote in my journal. I didn't bother turning on the light because it will just ruin the happy mood. hihi. : )
Then it was three in the morning. At least I went to sleep with a smile etched on my pale face.
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Two days ago, I had another "It's a sign! A sign, I tell you!" moment. There was only one Hapon 11 class available and I couldn't preenlist in it because of schedule conflicts. BUT last Wednesday, just one day before the deadline of the online preenlistment (But now the deadline is extended until today), another Hapon 11 class opened. As if it opened just for me HAHAHAHA (feeling).
God is good : )
Hapon 11 will be my 3rd foreign language elective. We are required to take only 2 foreign language electives, thus, this will not be credited. But I still want to take it and I still HAVE to take it. Ate Belle from UP-OVCAA OEC suggested that I should take another 3 units of Japanese just in case I make it to Ritsumeikan. (crosses fingers and toes and everything there is to cross)
The class ends at 7 PM. This will be my first 5:30-7 PM class ever.
The final results for my exchange student scholarship application will be released in February. The suspense/uncertainty is toooo much. These aren't butterflies in my stomach, these are gigantic prehistoric bats! HOHO. I need something to distract me from all the tension. I really hope that this one is for me. I made it this far, I hope that my "Japan Plan" doesn't end here. Hohohoho.
: )
Ang bitin ng ending. Gutom na ko, bye : )
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