I spent some time with my best friend (from high school) today. It was fun. I haven't seen this person for two years! There was a lot of catching up. What a great way to end 2010.
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Here's another smile just because I'm feeling extra happy
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I've been reading about Globalization for around two hours now. I've also been distracted by Samantha Brown's program on Travel & Living, so those two hours were divided into studying lectures and watching (envying) Ms. Brown's adventures. She went to Paris and Tuscany. What great experiences you've had, Samantha.
But I'm actually enjoying studying these lectures on Globalization; it's closely related with the topics I've been reading about the real notions of "Development." I think I'm starting to like this class. As I encounter more and more ideas coming from different authors, the world is starting to shed its jovial skin, allowing more of its true and darker nature to greet me. These authors have introduced me to the harsh veracities of life. These texts have already shown me how much power a tiny percentage of the human population has over the indifferent and the oppressed. Myriad lies are countered by myriad truths. And truths are battling against other truths.
I have been observing my current pattern of interest, I think I may have found my real path. Those recent realizations and pensive reflections have finally evolved into an actual enlightenment. Thank you, favorite professor for the much needed guidance.
My feelings towards the "glossy" media industry has not changed. It remains ambivalent. It has its own share of good days and bad days. Most of the time, it's the bad, but hey, let's try to change that.
Despite this recently developed "enlightenment" of the real things I aspire in life, much bafflement still resides within me. It's as if my left hand is reaching for what my right hand is blocking.
I've mentioned before that I want to live somewhere near the sea (or in some strange mountain) by the time I retire from my chosen line of work (which is still an on-going/semi-evasive search). But I also want that "line of work" to involve a lot of travelling.
Most of my goals and passions have remained in the proud shadows of quasi-abstractions:
Write. Teach. Help. Learn. Inspire. Travel.
Fiction. Non-fiction. Film. Books.
Sociology. Literature.
Cheers to an on-going struggle of finding ways on how to find clarity amidst a blurry pool of aspirations!
There are so many things we want to do, we feel so certain about most of our aspirations and yet why are we still left with much confusion? Or maybe that's just me who is bemused by life. I know what I want to do in life, but I don't know which path is the "right" path, which path is the "plausible" path? These rows of queries are incessantly piling up.
One of the scariest questions I often ask myself is:
What do I do after college?
Perhaps it's only natural for a student to feel uncertain about the future. Perhaps I can answer this question soon enough for me to be able to ponder over the next life-altering question waiting for me.
But my confusion is not solely confined to career-related decisions, it has also extended itself to a more personal aspect in my life. This year has been blessed with so much questions that have nudged me into knowing myself better. This current confusion has been around for a long time, but it is only now that I have bravely acknowledged the fact that it's true, that it's part of who I am as an individual. I shall resolve this soon.
Q & A. Questions and answers. They always appear as a pair, can't they exist separately? A question does not have to have an immediate answer. And an answer can be an answer to different questions.
Cheers to a life full of questions and answers! Cheers.
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